Do You See Me?

Do you see me?

Really?

Can you see 

Behind the Mask?

Have you looked

Beyond 

Into who I am

What I dream

Do you hear me?

My Cry

My Voice

My heart?

How can you know me

When you do not see?

You do not listen

You do not feel?

How can you know me

When you can not see

beyond the smile

The laugh

Do you know

My Reality?

My Pain?

My insecurities?

Do you hear 

How loud I cry?

Do you feel

My Pain?

And yet you 

Judge me

Mock me

Betray me

You leave me alone

To fight the world

suffering 

in pain..

Abandoned

Betrayed

Thrown away

Alone.

@Shauni

Tears

I do not cry

Pretty tears

No gentle rain 

For me

No single teardrop

slowly trailing

down an alabster cheek

No soft sigh

No, I sob

A wild Thunderstorm

Wracked with Grief

I Grieve

I sob

I hurt..

No beauty queen 

tears for me

Emotion grabs me

shakes me

controls me

I do not cry 

pretty tears

rather inelegant

gulping gasping sobs

Tears falling off

spiked lashes 

Like a waterfall

Dashing to the rocks

The pain engulfs me

strangles me

controls me

purges me

Leaving me empty

destroyed

ruined and lost

@Shauni

I Cried Today

There was no dance today
I was lost in the memories
cocooned in his arms
yet dreaming of you constantly

He asks so little
and offers so much
a promise of tomorrow
in his every touch

And today
he asked me to dance
all I could see
was the pride in each glance

My heart was lost
in perpetual anguish
to dance for him
would tarnish what i cherish

It isn't that I don't
Love him, I do
it is just that
he is not you..

So tonight cradeled in his arms
I cried
I cried for what was
for what I denied

I cried for what
would never be
I cried because we
are no longer we

© Shauni