Once I Believed

Once I believed

That there was a place

For someone

like me

Once I believed

That I would

Dream Dreams

Live and Love

Once I believed

That in spite of it all

There was a place

For me

Once...

I believed, I dreamed

I hoped, 

Once..

Once I believed 

That life was grand

That there was joy

That there was hope

Once..

But no more

No more do 

I believe

Too many times

The dreams have been shattered

The heart has been broken

Nothing has mattered

Too many times

Those that said they care

Walked away

Left me alone

Too many times

I sat and cried

For a friend

to stand by my side

Too many times

The battle has been lost

and the victor takes 

the spoils

Leaving me

Alone

Betrayed

lost

@Shauni

Do You See Me?

Do you see me?

Really?

Can you see 

Behind the Mask?

Have you looked

Beyond 

Into who I am

What I dream

Do you hear me?

My Cry

My Voice

My heart?

How can you know me

When you do not see?

You do not listen

You do not feel?

How can you know me

When you can not see

beyond the smile

The laugh

Do you know

My Reality?

My Pain?

My insecurities?

Do you hear 

How loud I cry?

Do you feel

My Pain?

And yet you 

Judge me

Mock me

Betray me

You leave me alone

To fight the world

suffering 

in pain..

Abandoned

Betrayed

Thrown away

Alone.

@Shauni

I am Undone

I stand alone

the night calls, 

The mist is rising

Darkness falls..

As the world ignores

the desperate moan

The demons thrive

I stand alone

Battled and betrayed

Hope all but gone

Bruised and scared

I am undone

Used and abused

for someone's gain

Never minding 

My constant Pain

The battle is raging

The war not won

I stand alone

I am undone

@Shauni